B0RED iiN SCH0OL * :]

WELLP* iiM iiN CLASS BORED LiikE A MUHFUCkAA :] WiiTH MiikEYYYYY !! --THA fagg. lOL . ANYYWH0O* THiiS WkND GON bE BORiiNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG ! L0L iM DONE.

thouqhtz 0f the dayy.

s0 itz like 4:45 iin the m0rniinq. && im up thiinkiinq ! yupp m0re th0uqhtz. mah bestiie leavin s0on :[ f0r like half tha year. l0l-- n0t k0ol . and ive chosed to become celibant.[idk iif thatz h0w y0u spell iit). but : teenaqe termz* n0 sex. iitz n0t w0rth tha drama, && the "heart ache" s0rriie iif i s0und c0rney. but cheaa. anywh0 0ff that subjectt. l0l iim usiinq thiis mess az liike and 0nliine journal [brez thouqhts nd feeliinqz) ii cant 0nlii iimaqiine h0w mani peoplee actually read this jank. l0l* but yea. me nd my qirl arguein today nd she wna tell ma ass ta qrow up ?! wen she tha 0ne who started tha shit lmaO * anywayz-- femalez aiint that important. uhq wtf am ii d0iin up riiqh nAHH !? ii shud be sleep l0l. anywayz. i was thiinkiin bout tryin out for the flemiinq island cheerleadiinq team.. AFTER i get a new j0bb.. s0o im deff huntiin ALL M0NDAYYY* needa qiit back t0 tha m0neyy. cus im tired 0f layin r0und tha h0use d0iin nothiinq ! but chea. im qoin to bed. 

still kiinda hurt.

uhq idk whyy i tryy to hiide the fact that iim hurt. i made the miistake of fallin iin love with someone-- who didnt seem to lovee me back.(meaniinq): i let someone take control of my feelingz. so iin the end, whoz the one who endz up hurt ? me. iim not the type of girl to runn around nd fall n love wiith someone after a week-- iif im iin love... iim actually in love. my game on point, nd i have no problem fiindiin otha men. iitz jsz that THiiS 0ne b0y was the 0NLYY 0ne to have me liike thiis. i would && still would d0 ANYTHiiNGG f0r thiis man * && ii knw hed d0 tha same fa me. but its tha siimple fact that iits impossiible to have a relatiionshiip wiith him. he cant be faithful && a man that cant be faithful doesnt devserve to me. iits wateva. everyone makez miistakes and i can only wiish the best f0r hiim. because yes i d0 l0ve him. and yes iit would make me happy to see hiim happy. sO itz jsz best iif ii lett him qo :[ . its better that we still have some kinda friiendship tho. rather then nothing. so maybe i shouldnt complain. iit just makez me mad that wen he qot outta priison he wasnt the person ii thot he waz. but o well...

.....liife qoesz on..

new thouqhts.

After g0in thr0uqh O8' miserable-- t0wardz the end ii realiized iit wasz just a less0n learned. [t0 neva let s0me0ne have c0ntr0l 0f y0ur liife) && t0 neva trust any0ne but Y0URSELF.  s0me pe0ple chanqe && s0me people d0nt. iits liife.. y0u cant be upset wiith y0urself 0r th0ze "people" but iit w0nt chanqe anythiinq. so iits just better t0--move on..i cant be fully upset wiith my [EX)-- cus iif i didnt qiive hiim what he wanted he c0ulda just m0ved 0n-- but i can be mad @ the siituatii0n. because he didnt have t0 keep me ar0und whiile he was m0viin 0n. ii wiish ii w0uld th0uqht 0f my acti0nz when i met hiim && maybe him respect level f0r me w0ulda been m0re then what i put myself as. what d0nt kill me, kan 0nlii helped build mee. && all0winq myself t0 be treated like that, just helped build me && made a better pers0n @ heart.iit tauqht me a less0n iin liife * && thatz n0t t0 take s0me0ne f0r qranted.  n0t 0nlii diid i realiize al0t iin O8' but ii diid m0st of my qr0wiinq up. funny h0w shiit w0rkz 0ut-- the pe0ple y0u thiink are friiendz[envy y0u)* && the pe0ple y0u believe are y0ur [enemiiez) -- will be the 1st 0nez there fa y0u. jsz because O9' iis a new year does not mean iima be a new person-- iit just meanz iits time for me to set NEW goalz&& boundries f0r myself. && thats f0r me n0t t0 fall f0r the same dumb shit i did iin the past yearz. because n0w ii kn0 better. iits liife. you liive, you love && you learn.